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HERMAPHRODITUS
BY LINDA MASTRANGELO
1
She mourns his other half, sits
silent over the steel chair and waits for her morning eggs. The
draft from an open window drifts in from Kingston Street, where
she walks to work in paper heels, dragging an orange coat with
missing buttons. It was his coat. Not the one found tattered
in rail wire and gum. The howl of the train imbedded in the
woolen threads, if you listen close.
Or a scream of someone
laughing.
2
He has half a name, half a story. A half
an hour between train whistles, heading downtown to Queensboro
Plaza. He is spinning, the water in his heart leaking dirt and
wine, the ghost of his right half teasing air. The feminine half,
that could deal with pain and humility. Or the other, that has
lost the physical wholeness which breaks things to hold them. He
draws a cracked shade and decides to sleep until
dark.
3
In bed, she dreams of them, sewing bodies with
steel needles. Thread made of blue veins, pale like old oysters, not
glutted with blood that thickens in heat. She is sewing the skin,
her right half to his left with blue fingers piercing like herons. He
is sewing her skin, with no eyes, no hair. He is faster, more
desperate, because a train is approaching, crouching from its speed.
4
She awakens and only remembers the pushing hands, no
faces, that hit into the track of current and wood, waiting to
be flattened like a copper penny she put on the rails as a child in
Tipperary. The face of the queen, dissolves in smoothness, or
like the bottom of her father's ale mug, lifted up to take his
last swallow of birch before bedtime. She wakens before this,
gasping for water. She hides this secret like dirty hair and puts it
in a cap.
5
He is alone again, among dead faces from
photos, a reef of headstones. He no longer sees her in them. They
no longer bathe together or go fishing for sharks. He no
longer wants her, or cares for her smell in his nightshirt. He
only wishes he had seen his other half, waving from the train tracks,
like a lost friend, not a spinning mass of flesh, chewing at the
air, coughing up coal dust of forgotten animals.
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